it’s kind of sad if you don’t know the meaning…

To my future new boyfriend

I am going to say ‘I love you too’ soon.

And I am going to say ‘yes’ for your request to a relationship.

But here goes my rules:

Let me have my girlsnights simply because they have kept me strong all this time, way before you came to my life.

Let us (the girls) kiss each other because they taught me the way to kiss that you like so much. When we do it in front of you, do not frown, just laugh with us.

When I accidentally kiss another guy, forgive me.

Let me cook, clean and shop for you. That is my way to differentiate you from other guys that I accidentally kiss.

Let me bring you drinks at your soccer games. If you feel ashamed in front of your friends, you don’t need to kiss me. Just touch my cheek when you say thanks.

Let me have my midnight snacks and don’t worry about my weight. I am exercising when you are not watching.

When I bring my laptop to your place that means two things: I need to do some work yet I need to be near you. Let me put on my earphone, listen to music, work and let me crawl over to your side of the table and kiss you from time to time.

Let me dance.

Help me to stop the disgusting habit of mine, but understand and join me when I say I really need it.

Let me ask you questions about your job and teach me things that you see and learn, because I admire and respect what you do and aspire to do the same.

I do not know how healthy our relationship will be. Because I can already see the end even before we begin, and that scares me. But the truth is, since you have been gone, time has been crawling too slowly. I almost forgot how beautifully torturing being in love can be. You are right; sometimes pain is the only way to know that we are alive. And it is amazing how alive I feel now to be in love again.

So, to my future new boyfriend,

Let me love you.

~ by dhanio on October 6, 2007.